Date: Mon, 13 Apr 1998 13:16:49 +0800 From: JSA Subject: "Do You Hear What I Hear?" (PG-13) Sender: owner-tales@mcfeeley.cc.utexas.edu X-Sender: jsa@curricula.net To: tales@mcfeeley.cc.utexas.edu Reply-to: tales@mcfeeley.cc.utexas.edu X-Mailer: QUALCOMM Windows Eudora Light Version 3.0.3 (32) DO YOU HEAR WHAT I HEAR? a Space: Above and Beyond story by Jessi Albano *** Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the TV program "Space" Above and Beyond" are the creations of Glen Morgan and James Wong, Fox Broadcasting and Hard Eight Productions, and have been used without permission. No copyright infringement is intended. However, this story is mine and should not be used without my express permission. Rated: PG-13. *** I've heard it said that in the last moments of a person's life, the Universe shifts and things get strange. That time slows, almost stops, and each instant becomes a lifetime in itself. Be that as it may, it still all happened so fast. "Take 'em home." I release the latch and the APC starts falling. That's when it begins -- this strange twisting of the Universe. Guess I should have studied Einstein more closely while I was in school. I'm sure he had an explanation for why suddenly everything seems to be going in slow motion. And why suddenly everything seems to be glowing. Adrenaline? Maybe the APC is on fire and I'm just too spaced-out to notice. Too _scared._ Dammit, I didn't think I'd have time to be scared. Time to think, time to _know._ What a gyp -- not time enough to say goodbye, but time enough to get scared. Isn't that just like life? Or death, as the case may be. I make it to the gun and I let loose. There are still Chigs out there, -- after my friends. This entire mess is their fault. They started this goddamn war. Bloodthirsty bugs. We should have known better than to trust them. Should have know better, damn it. I hit one, two -- I don't know how many. There's too many of them and not enough of me. As I see them fall one by one, I think maybe it won't happen. If I kill all of them I've got a chance. We've been through worse than this. We're the 5-8. Nathan and Coop will find a way to save us all. Shane and 'Housse and me. And tomorrow we'll win this war and go home and the first thing I'll do is go to Wrigley, eat a hotdog and send McQueen a postcard. "Wish you were here." God, I wish you were all here. If I make it through this, I swear I'll never tease Coop again. I'll tell Mom and Dad who really broke the crystal swan. I'll tell Vanessa how I really feel. I'll.... what am I doing? I'm only twenty-four years old. Shouldn't I at least get to see the Bears play again? Shoot one more three-point basket? Go on one more date? Well, shouldn't I? What the hell, so long as I'm dreaming. I see the last Chig plane come towards me and I know it's only a matter of time. But no, time doesn't matter. Not here, not now. All that matters is that it ends, one way or another. That's all I want now. Not to win, not to go home, not to be saved. I just want it to be over. For a while there, I thought it _was_ over. I thought we'd all get home. Nathan finding Kylen -- it seemed like a sign. The lost found, the circle closed. It made so much sense. So close. So damn close. I should have known better than to expect a war to make sense. I should have known better than to think we actually had a chance. No, I don't really want it to be over. Except I know it is. I read a book once, that said that the face of death was so beautiful that seeing her was worth dying for. And other books that told of how death wore a mask of horror, of pain and suffering. A priest once told me the angel of death brought peace, coming in a burst of golden light. And this old woman once told me that its specter brought only darkness and damnation. I've always wondered what to believe. I guess I'll find out. It's funny. Back on Earth, the stars didn't seem so far away. And it always seemed like they had something to say, something to tell you if you just listened hard enough, or if you were patient enough to decipher the code. But what would stars have to say? _Shine on?_ Somehow, I thought I'd take the thought of my death more seriously. It's not that I regret it. Some things are worth holding on to more than others. Some people, too. Hope you make it home, guys. God, I hope you make it. Shane, Vanessa -- hang on. They'll find you. They have to. And if they don't, _I_ will. I'm even sort of glad it happened now. Because I believe again. That whatever it is that's waiting for me out there, it's not the dark and nothing. And I think, I _believe,_ that ultimately, it doesn't matter how death presents itself, what face it shows to you. Ultimately, I believe, what matters is the face you show death. I'm not afraid anymore. I open fire at the approaching plane and scream the names of my fallen friends. Winslow. Chankowitz. Woodiak. Nelson. I wish I had time to name them all, but I don't. No one has that much time. This is for you. For all of you. See you on the other side. Semper Fi. The moment I hit that last Chig plane, I let go, and the Universe shifts again. I blink. It is, of course, possible, that I decided to dream this. On Earth they'd have a fancy name for it. Substitution fantasy, maybe. Denial. That my mind refused to accept the sight of the Chig ship hurtling towards me, on a definite collision course, and chose instead to see... It _can't_ be. Can it? A comet. _The_ comet. Coming towards me. Coming _for_ me. Coming to take me home. The End Jessi Albano 10 April 1998 copyright by author 1998 - ************************************************************** "When I thought you lost in the storm, it seemed a long time left that I must live, and the season would always be winter." - Cynthia Voight "Jackaroo" The Goddess of War Homepage http://www.geocities.com/TimesSquare/1730 The ESCAPED/TALES Archive http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Zone/7124/ ************************************************************** Date: Thu, 16 Apr 1998 10:45:10 +0800 From: JSA Subject: "Do You Hear What I Hear?" (PG-13) Sender: owner-tales@mcfeeley.cc.utexas.edu X-Sender: jsa@curricula.net To: tales@mcfeeley.cc.utexas.edu Reply-to: tales@mcfeeley.cc.utexas.edu X-Mailer: QUALCOMM Windows Eudora Light Version 3.0.3 (32) Since I got no comments the first time and I get really insecure when I don't, I'm reposting. SPACE fans, you know who you are (and so do I ::g::) can I have some feedback here? Thanks! *** DO YOU HEAR WHAT I HEAR? a Space: Above and Beyond story by Jessi Albano *** Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the TV program "Space" Above and Beyond" are the creations of Glen Morgan and James Wong, Fox Broadcasting and Hard Eight Productions, and have been used without permission. No copyright infringement is intended. However, this story is mine and should not be used without my express permission. Rated: PG-13. *** I've heard it said that in the last moments of a person's life, the Universe shifts and things get strange. That time slows, almost stops, and each instant becomes a lifetime in itself. Be that as it may, it still all happened so fast. "Take 'em home." I release the latch and the APC starts falling. That's when it begins -- this strange twisting of the Universe. Guess I should have studied Einstein more closely while I was in school. I'm sure he had an explanation for why suddenly everything seems to be going in slow motion. And why suddenly everything seems to be glowing. Adrenaline? Maybe the APC is on fire and I'm just too spaced-out to notice. Too _scared._ Dammit, I didn't think I'd have time to be scared. Time to think, time to _know._ What a gyp -- not time enough to say goodbye, but time enough to get scared. Isn't that just like life? Or death, as the case may be. I make it to the gun and I let loose. There are still Chigs out there, -- after my friends. This entire mess is their fault. They started this goddamn war. Bloodthirsty bugs. We should have known better than to trust them. Should have know better, damn it. I hit one, two -- I don't know how many. There's too many of them and not enough of me. As I see them fall one by one, I think maybe it won't happen. If I kill all of them I've got a chance. We've been through worse than this. We're the 5-8. Nathan and Coop will find a way to save us all. Vansen and 'Phousse and me. And tomorrow we'll win this war and go home and the first thing I'll do is go to Wrigley, eat a hotdog and send McQueen a postcard. "Wish you were here." God, I wish you were all here. If I make it through this, I swear I'll never tease Coop again. I'll tell Mom and Dad who really broke the crystal swan. I'll tell Vanessa how I really feel. I'll.... what am I doing? I'm only twenty-four years old. Shouldn't I at least get to see the Bears play again? Shoot one more three-point basket? Go on one more date? Well, shouldn't I? What the hell, so long as I'm dreaming. I see the last Chig plane come towards me and I know it's only a matter of time. But no, time doesn't matter. Not here, not now. All that matters is that it ends, one way or another. That's all I want now. Not to win, not to go home, not to be saved. I just want it to be over. For a while there, I thought it _was_ over. I thought we'd all get home. Nathan finding Kylen -- it seemed like a sign. The lost found, the circle closed. It made so much sense. So close. So damn close. I should have known better than to expect a war to make sense. I should have known better than to think we actually had a chance. No, I don't really want it to be over. Except I know it is. I read a book once, that said that the face of death was so beautiful that seeing her was worth dying for. And other books that told of how death wore a mask of horror, of pain and suffering. A priest once told me the angel of death brought peace, coming in a burst of golden light. And this old woman once told me that its specter brought only darkness and damnation. I've always wondered what to believe. I guess I'll find out. It's funny. Back on Earth, the stars didn't seem so far away. And it always seemed like they had something to say, something to tell you if you just listened hard enough, or if you were patient enough to decipher the code. But what would stars have to say? _Shine on?_ Somehow, I thought I'd take the thought of my death more seriously. It's not that I regret it. Some things are worth holding on to more than others. Some people, too. Hope you make it home, guys. God, I hope you make it. Shane, Vanessa -- hang on. They'll find you. They have to. And if they don't, _I_ will. I'm even sort of glad it happened now. Because I believe again. That whatever it is that's waiting for me out there, it's not the dark and nothing. And I think, I _believe,_ that ultimately, it doesn't matter how death presents itself, what face it shows to you. Ultimately, I believe, what matters is the face you show death. I'm not afraid anymore. I open fire at the approaching plane and scream the names of my fallen friends. Winslow. Chankowitz. Woodiak. Nelson. I wish I had time to name them all, but I don't. No one has that much time. This is for you. For all of you. See you on the other side. Semper Fi. The moment I hit that last Chig plane, I let go, and the Universe shifts again. I blink. It is, of course, possible, that I decided to dream this. On Earth they'd have a fancy name for it. Substitution fantasy, maybe. Denial. That my mind refused to accept the sight of the Chig ship hurtling towards me, on a definite collision course, and chose instead to see... It _can't_ be. Can it? A comet. _The_ comet. Coming towards me. Coming _for_ me. Coming to take me home. The End Jessi Albano 10 April 1998 copyright by author 1998 - ************************************************************** "When I thought you lost in the storm, it seemed a long time left that I must live, and the season would always be winter." - Cynthia Voight "Jackaroo" The Goddess of War Homepage http://www.geocities.com/TimesSquare/1730 The ESCAPED/TALES Archive http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Zone/7124/ **************************************************************